boys with beards

I love them. Especially boys with beards on bikes. *drooling*
Today, I am well. A little tired, but I have a double latte on the way. Yesterday? Not so good.
yesterday, a bad energy took over me and my sadness consumed me. I hardly left the house. I wanted to go to bed for the night at 630. I did the things that usually lift my spirits, but was unsuccessful. It was overcast and the wind had a chill. My ex seemed to be present, translucently walking around me, intensifying my sadness. It isn't often that I sit and cry.
I don't know what brought this on, and I couldn't figure out how to change my state of mind. I crawled in bed at a little after 7p, only to force myself up shortly after. A short conversation with a family member suggested taking some vitamins and advil, in which I also followed up with xanax, a dirty martini, and green to give me a different perspective. I began to feel much better, and made some progress doing things around the house.
While I do not normally turn to self-medicating, drinking and drugs for my well being, it most certainly boosted me out of my slump yesterday. And today? It's a beautiful day.