Saturday, February 16, 2008

internal struggle

the most awful thing you can do to someone is make them believe they have mental disabilities when they do not. my ex-love convinced me that all the issues I presented were in my head. I have vivid memories of me sitting on his bed, and he sitting across from me in a chair, holding my hands in his... "believe in me, beLIEVE in me.." "why are you so suspicious"
he had me so messed up, I saw a psych who put me on many drugs.
and to find out later that it was a very, very long string of lies.
there was a constant inner struggle going on which was tearing me apart, my intuition fighting with the fact that I really did want to believe in him.
eyes wide shut.